When My World Turned Upside Down
When the buyer for my vineyard grapes went bankrupt, I was left with an awful feeling of nauseousness, overwhelmed and panicked about how I will pay the loan I took to develop the vineyard. I wondered for a moment if I was going to lose everything and throw my life into chaos.
This is exactly the type of fear‑inducing anxiety that makes me wish for a magic wand to make it all disappear. This was the type of crisis I always feared… I took a breath. And what surprised me most: I was calm. There was no static in my thoughts. I slept well at night. And somehow I had absolute clarity that this would all work out even better than I could envision.
You might wonder how I was able to trust when my property was deeply in debt and the future of my home and vineyard were uncertain. How could I be in this mess so peacefully and have faith that I could create that magic wand myself?
Here's the truth: I'm still in the middle of this story. Nothing's wrapped up yet. But that's the whole point. Life isn't about rushing through the tension to get relief—there's always going to be tension unless you're dead. It's about knowing in your bones that you're safe and held, even when you can't see how things will work out.
The old me would be up all night spiraling. Instead I'm genuinely curious about what's unfolding. Everything has worked out so far in my life. Why would now be different? Doors are opening. People are showing up. Solutions I never could've forced are appearing.
I know I'm being conspired for, not against. And I wouldn't have it any other way. Because I learned how to shift out of my old survival patterns into an unshakeable inner clarity—and so can You.
This is the power of embodying your Magical Self. You are the Magic Wand. It's within You. This is what I call our Creational Authority—your birthright, your superpower, your magic.